Saturday, November 7, 2009

Summer Time


Summer. Everyone loves it.

"Oooooh, I can't wait for Summer!"

Except me.

I fucking HATE it.

What is so bloody good about it anyway? You reckon being hot 'n stinky 'n sweaty is a good thing?
The grass dies and goes to lawn heaven. All the plants kark it. You can't water the fucking things, because we're in a bloody drought, and there are water restrictions.

Sleeping is near impossible. If it isn't the sweat soaked sheets, or another hot body next to you wanting to play with your boobies, it's a fucking mosquito trying to suck the last bit of life out of you.

Wildlife suffers. Birds suffer. Hell, even the insects suffer if they come anywhere near my bug zapper thingy.

Give me Winter any day. Or late Autumn, or early Spring. Well, actually, no, don't. THIS is supposed to be Spring now. And already we're heading for our first heatwave of the season this week. A week of over 35 degrees. DO NOT WANT!

But at least we are prepared. We scored ourselves a second fridge today. Beer/drinks fridge.
Also good for over Chrissy, as I have the honour this year of doing Chrissy din dins.
We got the fridge off of Ms Smack's friend.
A bargain for a good working fridge. Thanks Ms Smack! =)

Next thing on the wish list, will be looking at getting a wireless modem thingymajig, so as we can put the puta in the lounge on stinking hot days. Impossible to sit out here in that weather.

Hands up here who likes Summer? What's your fave Season?

...Ute...

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Those Were The Best Years Of My Life. Part III

"Cosby~esque Jumpers!"


I looked for Magnaboy every weekend. For four long weeks in a row I watched for him. He never showed.
I had resigned myself to the fact that he was yet another bloke who was just after a quick root, but didn't get one, so that was the end of that.

But I was wrong.

The very next weekend, the Saturday night, the Saturday night that I said to Selma I didn't want to go out... but she changed my mind for me.... he showed up.

I remember that night like it was yesterday. I remember what he was wearing- white short sleeved shirt, grey flecked trousers, and black slip on dress shoes. He had a silver ring on his right ring finger, and he smelt good. He was wearing that same after shave I loved so much. =)
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This was the start of the best years of my life.... Magnaboy and I were inseparable. We saw each other as often as we could.
He would call me, or I would call him. He wrote me love letters, I wrote him ones back.
We were dizzy in love and had not a care in the world. Life was pretty damn near perfect.

He showed me what love really was. I had never experienced it before. I didn't understand it, couldn't fathom that a man could really, truly love me. It took me a long time to trust him, to believe he meant it when he told me he loved me. I still find it hard to accept.

I remember the little things he did that made me go all squishy inside. He'd hold my hand, or while he was driving, he'd place his hand on my leg. Only removing it to change gears.
The way he looked deep into my eye's with his blue, searching eyes... his expressions needed no words, I completely understood everything he was saying.

We would enjoy doing simple things together. Going for country drives, and getting completely lost. Laying in a forest, looking up at the sky, with no one else around.
We would make love in places like this...places that took our breath away and where we felt like we were the only people on earth.

Waterfall Gully was our "Special Place". We would often sleep there, in the car.
It was here that Magnaboy gave me my Engagement ring. I never felt more emotion, than I did on that night. Love IS grand.

We were engaged in February 1989. And we moved in together in October 1989.
I loved being with him all the time. I couldn't wait for him to get home from work.
I loved preparing his meals. Loved washing his clothes, doing ironing for him, loved everything.
We shared a single bed, until I finally was allowed my old double bed from home.

We were married on the 21st April, 1990, at the Adelaide Registry office in the city.
Only immediate family and very close friends attended. A LOT of his family were very put out by us marrying the way we did. Care factor zero.

Life with Magnaboy was everything I ever wanted.
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Present Day...

So many things have come and gone since those days. A lot of years. A lot of heartache and a lot of struggling.
But also, a heck of a lot of fun, memories and love.

We are totally different people to what we were. I miss him. I miss me.
We've done the counselling thing. Done the separation.
We were miserable apart, and some times, we are miserable together.

Life for us changed dramatically and showed us sides to one another that we didn't really like.
However, we still have a connection to one another that seems to defy all reasons.
We still care deeply for each other. We love one another.
We're just not, in love as we used to be.

I don't know if we'll ever be able to get back those times. I think too much time has passed.
It's just a pity that so many obstacles were placed in our path to happiness. A lot of those obstacles were of my doing.... my fault. But many were also from people determined to see us fail.


Still, I don't think I would have it any other way. I still think that those were the best years of my life.



...Ute...

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Tuesday Utes IX


Ooooooooooooooohhhh Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh...

Have spotted this particular Ice Blue Falcon tradies Ute on a number of occasions in and around McLaren Vale. Purty. =)




...Ute...

Monday, November 2, 2009

Update

I closed my hotmail account.

I spent the whole afternoon firstly going around to all the various sites, and changing my email address.
And now have opened up a Gmail account.
It's pissed me off. I used that account specifically for blogging, keeping in touch with blogger mates, and general internet browsing. I do not like using my personal email address for this purpose.

Now, after sending out a bulk email to all and sundry who were in my hotmail account, I have realised that it gives my real name. Oh well.

Hotmail was definitely compromised. It wasn't just a case of cut and pasting all my contacts. Someone had gone into my saved items folder, and deleted it. I had a lot of personal stuff in there. So fucking spewing.

Well, anyway. At least my blog is safe. *touchwood*

I will continue to post Tuesday Utes photos. But won't be revealing my email address. So if you received an email from me with my new address, feel free to send me photos.

...Ute...

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Hacked

Okay, so I am freaking out quite bigly.

My hotmail account has been hacked, and everyone in my address book has been sent an email, supposedly from me. The hacker even used my signature.

I even got an email to my other account from me.. this is how I was notified as to the hacking. That, and a postmaster email notification fail message.

I have changed my password, and I have changed my secret squirrel kwestshun, but I am feeling very venerable.

I've been given the advice to just close that account down. Which I should, but I am worried after all the shit I had last year with my blog being deleted, that if I go and change my email address and password on blogger/google, and delete my hotmail account, I will lose this blog again!?!

*cries*

And why the fuck should I bloody have to close that account? Fucking cunts.
I've had that account since 2005.

If I close that account, I will have to export all the email address' out of that before hand.

Can the hacker hack into this account? My blog? My google thingy?
I've changed my Fartbook email and stuff. But bloody hell, there are so many things attached to my hotmail account.

I guess my Tuesday Utes segment will not be happening anymore either, as I took down my email address from my profile.
I've been getting heaps of spam lately... I wonder if this has anything to do with it?


What a fucking headache.

Advice?

...Ute...

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Those Were The Best Years Of My Life. Part II

"The Beast"......


Not only didn't I know the blokes name that I had my tongue down his throat, but the other fellow who was sitting next to me, that I proceeded to pash too while I fondled Mr smileys leg.... well, yeah... I didn't quite catch his name either.

It turns out I was pretty damn pissed and stoned that night. But isn't life funny, how it allows you to remember all that embarrassing stuff the next day?!

Well anyway... after much pashing and leg fondling, me and mr smiley, who at last told me his name, went out on to the balcony yet again, and we shared a smoke and a cone.


Selma, by this time, had had enough of the night, and decided she wanted to go home.
What Selma wanted, Selma usually got.
Anita was having none of it~ she and Selma often fought, and this time was no different. Anita told her in no uncertain terms, she was staying. She was having fun.
Selma did her usual and played the guilt card, but nup.... Anita told her if she wanted to go home, to go. But she was staying.
Selma looked at me. "Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaase Ute, can you come home with me???"

At this point, Mr Smiley and friends piped up,"We'll give you a lift home."
FARK!
That was THE best thing! A fucking "PU"... a Pick Up!
"We're parked down at the East End markets. C'mon."

So, me and Sel, and Mr Smiley and Mr Romany nose all walked, or tried to, to where Mr Smiley had his car parked.
He had his very own dooflicky thingymajig that opened up the roller door to the market!
Muffled whisper to Sel, that, "Holy crap...he must be doin' alright aaaaaay! He has his own watchyamacallit fingy!"
We were impressionable 80s chicks, EVERYTHING impressed us. Especially blokes with cars.

Back then, I hadn't yet realised my Ute passion. I was yet to discover cars, but this very night my friends, was the night I learnt to love. The night I not only found my one true love in life, but also, my love of fast cars. Red, shiny, fast cars.

As the roller door slid up, and the dim light of the street shined into the darkened market stall, there sat "The Beast".

*audible intake of breath*

"The Beast" was a '79 VB Holden Commodore. I didn't know that. I didn't give a shit what it was. It was just freakin' awesome!
It was red 'n shiny 'n sounded uber hot. It had a sunroof(which I later learned leaked), and sports exhaust and extractors. Mag wheels, which to this day, none have compared. You can't find 'em like that anymore.

Anyhoo. Smiley dude opened the passenger door for me. *drunk mind instantly sobers up and recalls Dear old Dad's rules of a "Gentleman"*
He waited for me to fall in, and then closed the door behind me. While I attempted to regain my dignity, and sit upright, I whispered to Sel, "Did you shee that... he opened the door for meee!"

It was only a short drive to where we wanted to be dropped off. We had rules of course, never allow the PU to know where we lived. Drop us off at Unley Road, and we'd walk off in a different direction to where we actually lived. Just in case.
But this was a totally different occasion. I wanted to see this spunk again. He took my breath away. I felt all squishy. And his smile.... oh God, his smile.

Smiley sat with The Beast idling... Sel was flirting away with Smiley's friend, I was leaning into the drivers window.
"So, will I see you again?" I asked.
He smiled that big teethy grin and said, "Yeah, I think you will." That was it.

After goodbyes, they drove off. He showed off. He did a burn out. =p

I said to Sel I was heading home. I wanted to go to bed and sleep. I was so fucking wasted.
She wanted me to go back to her house.
Nah mate... I want to sleep in my own bed.

I went home and fell into bed. I lay there, dizzy from the nights experiences. I just hoped now, that on our next visit to the Griffins, that I would meet up with Magnaboy. ;)

....To Be Continued....

...Ute...

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Dangerous Curves Ahead


I've just read a blog post about something that has always bothered me, and for which I have recently been talking to Magnaboy, and also to some girlfriends.

It was about whether a bigger woman(like me) should wear close fitting, revealing clothes, or should she wear loose/baggy clothing?

Is it OK to show a bit of booby? A bit of cleavage? Some leg? Some upper flabby arm? Some back?
Is it OK to wear a tight fitting t-shirt/top that shows off all your womanly curves? Or should we be trying to hide that shit up, for fear of scaring the bejesus out of lesser sized folk?

Personally, I am too self conscious to reveal skin.
I always wear baggy clothes. The baggier, the better. I am too repulsed by my own wobbly bits to wear low cut tops.
And I hate short sleeved tops that show off my fat upper arms.
My lower legs are skinny, but the top of them are like tree trunks, and have not seen the light of day since way back in 1985.

I wish I had the self confidence to wear nice clothes. I have a few larger sized lady friends who do wear low cut tops, and snug fitting things, and they carry it off because they have confidence and aren't constantly looking down at their chest and wondering if their tits are falling out of their top!

I know Mboy would love for me to wear more figure appropriate clothing, but I just feel weird.

So what is your opinion~ do you think larger lasses should stick to baggy clothing to cover up, or should we embrace our bodies, and show it to the world?

...Ute...